So, what’s next?
On a rainy, chilly Saturday I sit to write this post.
Cancer-free! 😭😁🙏
Pooped 💩
I’ve written a lot about the balance of my mental health and physical health and how that balance has shifted over the past 5 months. I’m still not at all sure what my learnings from this will be but I do know how critical and fragile that balance is.
I know I have a future, but I’m not sure what to make of it quite yet. My body has a lot of healing to do. I am still so tired, and my body needs a lot of rest - and my soul needs people and I’ll for sure be spending the next few months figuring out the balance in this phase. And hoping to get to see, hug and thank so many of you in person! 🎉
So so much to look forward to.
And, to be honest, I’m not sure what (if anything) happens next with this blog. It’s truly been a godsend during this season. A beautiful reminder of how loved and supported I am. A way to keep my amazing support system aware of what was happening if I couldn’t answer every email, call or text. A chronicle I can look back to as it inevitably fades into a chapter of my life’s story.
I’ve so loved this. And it may have run its course. Because I will have an ORDINARY extraordinary future - just like most of us.
I knew I loved to write, but it wasn’t until I had this specific reason that I found some discipline, and an abundance of content!
So, I may post some things on radiation or recovery or getting my strength back. I may post a beach pic when I get to that beach that was so often my place of solace and meditation. I might - I might not. Just know I am OK, much much more than OK. I’m at a brand new starting line.
Your love, prayers, support, and ability to hold my future in a way that I wasn’t able to was every bit as critical to this successful outcome as UCSF. I truly believe that. I am forever in your debt. And while I don’t know what all I’ll carry with me going forward, you are indelibly etched deep in my heart.
It’s a beautiful day.
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One more haiku
If you’re lucky to
Live a full, messy, gorgeous
Life….scars are precious.
All of your posts have truly been inspiring and amazing. I have such deep admiration for how you’ve handled this journey. I have the utmost respect for the corsage it took to be so honest and authentic as you put into words everything that was happening and how you were feeling, both physically and emotionally. You certainly set the bar high for all of us! My love, caring and support will always be there no matter where life takes you next.
So happy for you...and for all of us in your world. And even though I'm no longer in Events, I want to work on your first book release event. It will be spectacular...can't wait. You are amazing, courageous, kind, insightful and an unbelievable writer. Love to you!!!!